April 22, 2009
Relief
So I did a little test 'run' this evening. I went to the gym and wore my old running shoes. Mercy, it was like running on clouds. My feet didn't hurt one bit (I ran 4 miles). So to my relief, I have not yet totally screwed up my feet, I just bought the wrong shoes and apparently need to buy new ones that work better me. What a relief. I'm like...ecstatic! haha
April 21, 2009
Lately...
A couple minor changes have taken place in the life of b-diddy recently that I should perhaps write about.
First and foremost. I have not seen a glimpse of Gym Boy for over three weeks and I am distraught. Why even go to the gym ya know? And on top of that I bought new shoes cause I thought that would be a good thing for my feet. Well ever since I bought these things my feet have been killing. I've been meaning to go to this store that will analyze your step but have yet to get there so my feet continue to be in pain. Last Friday I thought for sure I totally jacked up my feet but I was able to run on Saturday a little bit and this week some. They still hurt and I'm thinking perhaps I just need some inserts for arch support?! I'm hoping that will do the trick. If I can't run, I think I will cry every night...that's the one source of exercise I thoroughly enjoy doing.
Secondly. For a very very long time I've contemplated going back to school to either get another bachelors degree or to somehow manage to get my sorry butt into grad school. So I took the plunge this week and applied for a 2nd bachelors degree at the University of Utah. I'm going to (if I get accepted...don't know seeing how school's never been my thing) start taking psychology courses to get a good basis in that area and see if I like learning about it as much as I think I will. Then after a semester or so, take the GRE (maybe even a couple times...again, I suck at school), and try and get accepted to a Clinical Psychology masters program. I'm having mixed emotions though. I get really excited and I was excited today applying and what-not. But then now that I'm sitting here thinking about it, I get anxiety about failing and not getting anywhere with it and wonder why the crap I even thought about applying. I know that's just nerves and not knowing how I'll be able to handle school and working full-time, but I will kick myself forever if I don't at least try. Here I am worrying about time and my abilities when I should really be worrying about how I'm financially going to take care of this! haha It will all work out in the end...right?
Umm, no third item of business. I guess I don't have too many changes ahead of me, but I think they are plenty for me right now. Oh yeah. The location of zits on my face is ever changing...I stopped taking my medicine about a month ago and have been loaded down with zits. I'm hoping the zits add a youthful flare to my face! ;)
Yeehaw-
First and foremost. I have not seen a glimpse of Gym Boy for over three weeks and I am distraught. Why even go to the gym ya know? And on top of that I bought new shoes cause I thought that would be a good thing for my feet. Well ever since I bought these things my feet have been killing. I've been meaning to go to this store that will analyze your step but have yet to get there so my feet continue to be in pain. Last Friday I thought for sure I totally jacked up my feet but I was able to run on Saturday a little bit and this week some. They still hurt and I'm thinking perhaps I just need some inserts for arch support?! I'm hoping that will do the trick. If I can't run, I think I will cry every night...that's the one source of exercise I thoroughly enjoy doing.
Secondly. For a very very long time I've contemplated going back to school to either get another bachelors degree or to somehow manage to get my sorry butt into grad school. So I took the plunge this week and applied for a 2nd bachelors degree at the University of Utah. I'm going to (if I get accepted...don't know seeing how school's never been my thing) start taking psychology courses to get a good basis in that area and see if I like learning about it as much as I think I will. Then after a semester or so, take the GRE (maybe even a couple times...again, I suck at school), and try and get accepted to a Clinical Psychology masters program. I'm having mixed emotions though. I get really excited and I was excited today applying and what-not. But then now that I'm sitting here thinking about it, I get anxiety about failing and not getting anywhere with it and wonder why the crap I even thought about applying. I know that's just nerves and not knowing how I'll be able to handle school and working full-time, but I will kick myself forever if I don't at least try. Here I am worrying about time and my abilities when I should really be worrying about how I'm financially going to take care of this! haha It will all work out in the end...right?
Umm, no third item of business. I guess I don't have too many changes ahead of me, but I think they are plenty for me right now. Oh yeah. The location of zits on my face is ever changing...I stopped taking my medicine about a month ago and have been loaded down with zits. I'm hoping the zits add a youthful flare to my face! ;)
Yeehaw-
March 30, 2009
Training Update
I haven't updated on my successful training! Training for what? I don't know, but training none-the-less. And what better way to train than to train and enjoy a hot guy while your at it. Funny. There's a good looking guy at the gym that I've spied for the last little bit that we like to call Gym Boy...and turns out my normal 3 mile runs turn into 4 miles or 3 miles and then some biking! ha Good times. Anyways, here's the latest.
Each week I've been able to accomplish the drawn out plan to a tee. Well, I tend to run a little bit more than the schedules calls for throughout the week, but the long runs have been great. Two weeks ago I ran the longest run yet of 9 miles. Yes it took me 1 hour 45 minutes, but I mean crap. It's nine freaking miles. I started off strong, I ran 4.5 miles without stopping, but decided my body should take a rest and get some hydration. After that it was kind of down hill. I have an issue with maintaining hydration. I feel like I drink enough, and if I drink too much I'll puke, so I need to find a balance somehow. Around mile 6 I got the chills and every time I stopped to walk for a minute (literally a minute) they would come back to haunt me. But I finished like I said and was quite proud of myself. And as a little side note, I decided to run on an empty stomach which I am learning is probably not the best thing.
Last Saturday I was to drop my long run to 7 miles which compared to 9 miles was a piece of cake. I ran the 7 in 76 minutes which I felt was a fairly descent pace and didn't get the chills...as much. I did eat breakfast (although I had cereal with milk that had expired 8 days prior) and I tried to obey what my friends and sister told me to do and stop to sip on water at least every 2 miles. I got the chills, yes, but not as bad as I did the week before.
This Saturday I'm supposed to jump back up to 8 miles but I don't think I'll be able to run this weekend seeing as I will be out of commission persay, but I will surely run 8 the following weekend! And as far as what I'm training for, my roommate wants me to run in the Salt Lake Half Marathon which is some time in April, but we'll see. As of right now, I say no.
It's amazing how much I've enjoyed running now that I know and can run fairly descent distances. I know I have a lot to work on, especially my pace, but I do feel like I've accomplished something. :)
Each week I've been able to accomplish the drawn out plan to a tee. Well, I tend to run a little bit more than the schedules calls for throughout the week, but the long runs have been great. Two weeks ago I ran the longest run yet of 9 miles. Yes it took me 1 hour 45 minutes, but I mean crap. It's nine freaking miles. I started off strong, I ran 4.5 miles without stopping, but decided my body should take a rest and get some hydration. After that it was kind of down hill. I have an issue with maintaining hydration. I feel like I drink enough, and if I drink too much I'll puke, so I need to find a balance somehow. Around mile 6 I got the chills and every time I stopped to walk for a minute (literally a minute) they would come back to haunt me. But I finished like I said and was quite proud of myself. And as a little side note, I decided to run on an empty stomach which I am learning is probably not the best thing.
Last Saturday I was to drop my long run to 7 miles which compared to 9 miles was a piece of cake. I ran the 7 in 76 minutes which I felt was a fairly descent pace and didn't get the chills...as much. I did eat breakfast (although I had cereal with milk that had expired 8 days prior) and I tried to obey what my friends and sister told me to do and stop to sip on water at least every 2 miles. I got the chills, yes, but not as bad as I did the week before.
This Saturday I'm supposed to jump back up to 8 miles but I don't think I'll be able to run this weekend seeing as I will be out of commission persay, but I will surely run 8 the following weekend! And as far as what I'm training for, my roommate wants me to run in the Salt Lake Half Marathon which is some time in April, but we'll see. As of right now, I say no.
It's amazing how much I've enjoyed running now that I know and can run fairly descent distances. I know I have a lot to work on, especially my pace, but I do feel like I've accomplished something. :)
Twisted twisted state
About a month ago or maybe longer or maybe it's just felt like it's gone on for a long time, I was going through a tough time. I felt the weight of many friends' problems and I couldn't do anything about it but be there to comfort and provide solace. It was/is really hard for me cause I take my friends burdens as my own and end up feeling hopeless and inadequate when I can't fully help the situation they find themselves in (not saying that any of my friends are dealing with overly dramatic problems...just every day life situations that provide discomfort to their aura). It was and continues to be a hard thing for me to come to grips with. I don't know how to manage my feelings and allow myself to separate myself from their problems; meaning I see them saddened and I feel their pain. I hope that makes sense.
Anyways, around this time my dear visiting teacher came over and we were discussing some things and low and behold my dreams came up. As many of you know (most of my close friends surely know) I have some crazy crazy bizarre unexplainable dreams involving me and others...and animals. Yes, it's true. I have my fair share...who am I kidding, the majority of my dreams involve an animal in some sort of way. Whether they are on the way side just chillin' or I'm interacting with them, they are present and at times take on human characteristics. I have you know, I did not realize this until my wonderful roommate pointed this out and as I look back on my dreams, it's true. Animals are present in 95% of my dreams. Quite interesting. Regardless, my VT and I were talking and she felt I should write down my dreams. I found out through Facebook or maybe even this Dashboard that my friend is doing a dream blog and since I've been meaning to write them down in some way anyways, why not publish them for everyone to see.
Soooooo, here goes nothing. Starting today I have a new blog....now you can see how utterly twisted my amazing brain is. And please feel free to add incite to any of them, cause lets be honest, I can't figure it out on my own! :) Hope you enjoy the mind of b-diddy...asleep.
http://meinrem.blogspot.com/
Anyways, around this time my dear visiting teacher came over and we were discussing some things and low and behold my dreams came up. As many of you know (most of my close friends surely know) I have some crazy crazy bizarre unexplainable dreams involving me and others...and animals. Yes, it's true. I have my fair share...who am I kidding, the majority of my dreams involve an animal in some sort of way. Whether they are on the way side just chillin' or I'm interacting with them, they are present and at times take on human characteristics. I have you know, I did not realize this until my wonderful roommate pointed this out and as I look back on my dreams, it's true. Animals are present in 95% of my dreams. Quite interesting. Regardless, my VT and I were talking and she felt I should write down my dreams. I found out through Facebook or maybe even this Dashboard that my friend is doing a dream blog and since I've been meaning to write them down in some way anyways, why not publish them for everyone to see.
Soooooo, here goes nothing. Starting today I have a new blog....now you can see how utterly twisted my amazing brain is. And please feel free to add incite to any of them, cause lets be honest, I can't figure it out on my own! :) Hope you enjoy the mind of b-diddy...asleep.
http://meinrem.blogspot.com/
March 5, 2009
Senses
Our brains are amazing. I am sitting here surfing the internet listening to one of my mixed iTunes playlists and a Faith Hill song came on and brought back a waive of memories of when I first moved here. I bought this Faith Hill CD (on my quest to start liking country music) and listened to it constantly. It brought back a feeling of happiness, sadness, triumph, and anxiety. And how easily it came. Within the first ten seconds of the song, I was taken back 3 years. I was working for Fidelity Investments as a temp. commuting to work from Cedar Hills every day. I had just moved out here to Utah and was learning how to survive on my own, and on top of that I had to drive in the snow for the first time in my life (scary business for a Floridian). Wow...those were the days, and how life has changed since. It's strange cause it's not every song that I get taken aback by; maybe it's just those that didn't really impact me per-say at the time but were a part of my life when I needed the comfort of good music?!
It's not only songs that do this, it's smells too. It's hard to come across a smell of the past but from time to time it happens and holy flashback. It's kind of a neat experience cause I think you tend to forget things that don't seem very important in the long run, but at the time was a struggle...me moving to Utah and starting a life out here was, at the time, a very hard thing to do, but now that I'm established and have had a blessed life for the past 3 years, the beginning didn't seem all that hard...but it was and I'm glad I have senses to remember those moments and feelings! :)
...although some times they are indeed unwanted 'flashbacks'. Like a song that reminds you of good times with a guy that broke your heart or the smell of blood mixed with the cleaning agent you used to clean surgery tables at your first job at a vet's office. ha But overall they are welcomed thoughts which I enjoy dearly!
As I'm sitting here thinking about this, I'm feeling like this isn't really the case for sight?! I think you see so much everyday that it's hard to remember seeing something and then seeing that exact same thing to bring back those same emotions you had originally...I think it happens rarelier (not a word, but it's my blog and I can do what I want) and I hope that made sense (made sense...funny! ha). Perhaps the visual sensed flashbacks are more prominent in dreams and not during hours of being awake. Yeah.
Anywho...Happy Sensing-
It's not only songs that do this, it's smells too. It's hard to come across a smell of the past but from time to time it happens and holy flashback. It's kind of a neat experience cause I think you tend to forget things that don't seem very important in the long run, but at the time was a struggle...me moving to Utah and starting a life out here was, at the time, a very hard thing to do, but now that I'm established and have had a blessed life for the past 3 years, the beginning didn't seem all that hard...but it was and I'm glad I have senses to remember those moments and feelings! :)
...although some times they are indeed unwanted 'flashbacks'. Like a song that reminds you of good times with a guy that broke your heart or the smell of blood mixed with the cleaning agent you used to clean surgery tables at your first job at a vet's office. ha But overall they are welcomed thoughts which I enjoy dearly!
As I'm sitting here thinking about this, I'm feeling like this isn't really the case for sight?! I think you see so much everyday that it's hard to remember seeing something and then seeing that exact same thing to bring back those same emotions you had originally...I think it happens rarelier (not a word, but it's my blog and I can do what I want) and I hope that made sense (made sense...funny! ha). Perhaps the visual sensed flashbacks are more prominent in dreams and not during hours of being awake. Yeah.
Anywho...Happy Sensing-
February 8, 2009
Don't know...
I don't really know what to write about but I'm in one of those moods to write. So this may be a conglomerate of different subjects...sorry!
I guess I will update everyone on my 'training'. I'm not really sure what I'm training for but I wanted to get in better shape so I decided to 'train' for a half marathon. Whether I actually run a half marathon will be another story; my parents are thinking about coming out in April when the Salt Lake Half Marathon's going on and my pops thought it would be fun to run together, so we'll see.
Anyways, I know I failed completely last time but I have actually been really good since the beginning of the year or thereafter (I was sick for the first couple weeks). I've been going for the past three weeks and have followed through successfully. I did my longest run thus far on Saturday consisting of 6 miles. I thought perhaps I would die and I'll tell you why. I amazingly did the first 4 miles without really walking (the last 5 minutes of the 4 miles I slowed the pace down every minute until I was walking). However, I started getting the chills as soon as I slowed to a walk. Seeing as I was sweating up a storm I didn't understand why I was seriously shivering. A couple thoughts went through my mind...maybe just maybe that's how asthma attacks start? (apparently I have asthma and never knew it) ...I've been feeling a little sick and maybe I'm going to keel over and die right here on the treadmill? ...or maybe it's normal and people that run like this all the time always get chills? Don't know but I persevered and finished the 6 miles.
It felt great, I had such a since of accomplishment and I don't know why I never tried to run longer than 3 miles before. It's great, I'm really enjoying this running business. I never did get new running shoes so hopefully my feet don't get jacked up but so far so good! On the way home I was still continuing to get chills but they finally stopped and I'm chalking it up as just being semi-sick at the moment. Next Saturday I'm supposed to run 9 miles which seems like such a daunting task but I will do it...whether it takes me 5 hours to do it, it will get done! :) And hopefully I'll be feeling better so NO chills.
K, I'm done writing. What a silly blog but I for whatever reason felt like writing. Perhaps I'll have something to write about later that's a little more profound or thought provoking! :)
peace-
I guess I will update everyone on my 'training'. I'm not really sure what I'm training for but I wanted to get in better shape so I decided to 'train' for a half marathon. Whether I actually run a half marathon will be another story; my parents are thinking about coming out in April when the Salt Lake Half Marathon's going on and my pops thought it would be fun to run together, so we'll see.
Anyways, I know I failed completely last time but I have actually been really good since the beginning of the year or thereafter (I was sick for the first couple weeks). I've been going for the past three weeks and have followed through successfully. I did my longest run thus far on Saturday consisting of 6 miles. I thought perhaps I would die and I'll tell you why. I amazingly did the first 4 miles without really walking (the last 5 minutes of the 4 miles I slowed the pace down every minute until I was walking). However, I started getting the chills as soon as I slowed to a walk. Seeing as I was sweating up a storm I didn't understand why I was seriously shivering. A couple thoughts went through my mind...maybe just maybe that's how asthma attacks start? (apparently I have asthma and never knew it) ...I've been feeling a little sick and maybe I'm going to keel over and die right here on the treadmill? ...or maybe it's normal and people that run like this all the time always get chills? Don't know but I persevered and finished the 6 miles.
It felt great, I had such a since of accomplishment and I don't know why I never tried to run longer than 3 miles before. It's great, I'm really enjoying this running business. I never did get new running shoes so hopefully my feet don't get jacked up but so far so good! On the way home I was still continuing to get chills but they finally stopped and I'm chalking it up as just being semi-sick at the moment. Next Saturday I'm supposed to run 9 miles which seems like such a daunting task but I will do it...whether it takes me 5 hours to do it, it will get done! :) And hopefully I'll be feeling better so NO chills.
K, I'm done writing. What a silly blog but I for whatever reason felt like writing. Perhaps I'll have something to write about later that's a little more profound or thought provoking! :)
peace-
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